“Search for the Lord and for his strength, continually seek Him.” -Psalm 105:4
I woke up this morning and I knew that I finally had to get the schoolwork done that I had been putting off for weeks. I informed my professor before the holiday break about my alcohol problem, and seeing as I attend a Christian university, where most of the instructors are Christian as well, he was more than willing to give me the extension I so badly needed (not to say that a non-believer wouldn’t have extended the same courtesy). But instead of focusing on my research paper, I spent the entire day journaling, reading my devotional book and studying the Bible. Today’s devotional was about not skimping out on time spent with God. It was about setting priorities. This got me thinking. I’ve always viewed spending time with God as another task upon my already long list of tasks; school-work, house-work, work-work, working-out. It has always been one of those only-if-I-have-the-time activities. But maybe that needs to change. I’m curious what would happen if I put God at the top of my to-do list. If every day spending time alone with God, praying, listening to worship music, reading, or just sitting in silence was a non-negotiable task. And even more, what if I stopped viewing it as a task, but rather a sweet escape.
In Luke 10, verses 39 through 42, we are told about a story of two sisters, Martha and Mary. Martha is preparing a meal for an important house guest, Jesus, but is less than pleased with her sister because she doesn’t seem to care about helping in the kitchen, she only wants to spend time with Jesus. Martha openly criticizes her sister, but Jesus reminds her that Mary has in fact discovered the only thing worth being concerned about and that “it will not be taken away from her.”
Hm, the only thing worth being concerned about. That sure takes a load off doesn’t it? Letting God act as my personal assistant. Letting Him guide me through my day, one minute, one step at a time. As humans we are only equipped to handle 24-hour days at a time, yet we spend so much of that time worrying about the future or stuck in the past. But like the sunrise, we are made anew with each fresh morning and given the precious gift of time. Something I think many of us take for granted, myself included. I don’t want to take time for granted anymore. So I pray…
Dear Lord, thank you for the gift of time. I’m so blessed. I want to spend the time I have getting to know you intimately. Throughout my life I have wasted so much time. Time being drunk, time being high, time being sad, angry, lost and confused. Please help me spend my time wisely God. I know you have forgiven me for all my time wasted, but I haven’t forgiven myself. Help me forgive myself. Help me move forward. In Jesus name, Amen.