” ‘Be still and know that I am God! I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.’ ” (Psalm 46:10)
God, I want to trust you in the stillness.
In the quiet moments just before I fall asleep, my thoughts tend to wander aimlessly. I worry about things that haven’t even happened yet, things that are completely out of my control. I find myself unable to fully relinquish control and put all my trust in you. To let go, and recognize that you are God, that this is your world, you made it and you control it.
The days don’t seem to be as challenging as the nights. As I lay my head gently on my pillow, my mind begins to spiral. One thought leads to another thought, and that thought leads to another thought and I end up in an endless cycle of worry. Sometimes I’m actually surprised where my thoughts take me.
Last night, I finally heard a loud voice shout, “silence!”. I felt myself drifting to sleep. But the thoughts, really ridiculous silly thoughts, came back. And again I heard, “silence!”. That was the last thing I remember before I finally fell into a deep slumber. Ahhhh.
“By his divine power, God has given us everything we need for living a Godly life. We have received all of this by coming to know him, the one who called us to himself by means of his marvelous glory and excellence. And because of his glory and excellence, he has given us great and special promises. These are the promises that enable you to share his divine nature and escape the world’s corruption caused by human desires.” (2 Peter 1:3-4)
Human desires. It pains me to admit this, but these are the kinds of thoughts that keep me up at night. Should I buy those new wedges for the summer? Will I have enough money for my upcoming trip home? What if I don’t? How will I keep up with my workout routine while I’m there? As if my brain is a twisted ball of yarn; no clarity, no direction—just blah.
But you see, God has already given us everything we need. And we must nurture and guard this gift that has been planted in our hearts. I needn’t be concerned about frivolous earthly desires, for they mean nothing in heaven. I can rest knowing that God already has a plan, he is in control, not me.
“Devote yourselves to prayer with an alert mind and a thankful heart.” (Colossians 4:2)
Thank you God for quieting my mind and for knowing whats best for me. You are so good. Thank you for revealing your purpose for my life. Thank you for another day of sobriety. I know my seasons coming, but in your superior timing. Help me let go of the worries of this world and rest peacefully in your presence. In Jesus name, Amen.