“Light shines in the darkness for the godly. They are generous, compassionate, and righteous. They do not fear bad news; they confidently trust the Lord to care for them.” (Psalm 112:4,7)
This might sound completely insane to some people, okay let’s face it, most people; but I almost wish God would throw me a curveball, or some kind of obstacle, anything to put my faith to the test. Don’t get me wrong, I’m extremely grateful for these past two months, they’ve been enlightening and peaceful. But it’s easy to trust God when everything is going your way, and equally as easy to fall into the illusion that somehow you deserve a problem-free life. Sarah Young tells us that it is possible to enjoy and glorify Jesus in the midst of adverse circumstances and says that God’s light “shines most brightly through believers who trust Me in the dark.” Would the painted sky appear as bright if the Chollas weren’t casted in black? And just the same, would my life feel as bright if it weren’t for the times I’ve spent wandering in the dark?
“I have told you all of this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)
I’ve found myself in this vicious cycle many times before. I binge drink, then I beg God to help me, then magically things start to look up and life seems like it couldn’t get any better. Then, I unintentionally begin distancing myself from God. Eventually temptation strikes and the roots I thought I had planted firmly in the ground are abruptly uprooted and I’m back at what feels like square one.
I’m extremely grateful for the way things have been going lately, but I can’t really tell if I’ve taken root or if I’ve just been experiencing some fortunate weather. Am I really building an unshakable bond with God or is it all just an illusion? I suppose only time and trials will tell.