“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take.” (Psalm 3:5-6)
How liberating it is to be freed from the need to understand this world. To say to God, I’m tired of trying to figure this all out, show me the way. Circumstances big and small don’t bear much weight in a world where God is in control. When the road up ahead seems treacherous it’s easy to become discouraged, wandering how we are going to maneuver through the unknown. These are the times when I pray the most. I pray that God reveal his will to me.
Trusting in God is like the ultimate trust fall. Eyes closed, back turned, the force of gravity the only thing that I’m sure of. But what relief washes over me in the first moments after the fall, when I open my eyes unscathed and unharmed resting peacefully in the arms of Jesus. The more I trust in God, the easier the fall becomes.
“Dare to walk on the high road with Me, for it is the most direct route to heaven. The low road is circuitous: twisting and turning in agonizing knots. There the air hangs heavy, and dark, ominous cloud predominate. Relying on your own understanding will weigh you down. Trust in Me absolutely, and I will make your path straight.” -Sarah Young
Think about it. When your walking along a path, any path, aren’t the first few steps in front of you always straight? It’s only when we look too far ahead that we begin to see the curvature of the road up ahead.
“Don’t let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and also in me. There is more than enough room in my Father’s home. If this were not so, would I have told you that I am going to prepare a place for you?” (John 14:1-2)
If I only focus on the steps directly in front of me, how can I ever become troubled? Focusing only on the present allows us to stay in close relation with God. By doing so, we receive his love, grace, mercy, compassion, and peace. When we begin to stray away from the path whether by our actions or our thoughts, we begin to lose sight of what’s important.
It takes a lot of practice, and more effort than I ever could have imagined, but I’m beginning to feel this happening automatically. When my thoughts start to wander, or I begin to feel stressed or anxious, I immediately turn my thoughts back to Jesus. I surrender my thoughts to Him and He shows me the way.
I’ve been anxious about my upcoming trip the states. Not just what to pack or how much money I’ll have to spend while I’m there, but whether or not I’ll be able to stay sober. One thought leads to another thought and before I know it I’m completely overwhelmed by fear and doubt. It’s in these moments that I pause and turn my eyes on Jesus. He gently brings me back to center, reminding me that today is today and tomorrow is tomorrow, and to let tomorrow worry about itself.