“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” (Matthew 6:34)
It’s really amazing how much less time I’ve spent worrying since I started this devotional. I’m four days out from my trip back to the States and this is normally about the time I start losing sleep and worrying about the upcoming journey. I worry about what to pack and what not to pack, whether my flights will run smoothly, if the temptation to belly up to an airport bar will overtake me (a favorite past time), and then there’s that morbid thought I think we all have at some point before getting on a plane, I hope it doesn’t crash. Needless to say, it becomes nearly impossible to fall asleep because my brain just won’t shut up.
But over the last week or so, and even today, I still feel pretty calm. I told myself that I wasn’t going to think about packing until the Tuesday before my departure. The minute I find myself worrying about what to bring there comes a little tap on my shoulder that says, Tuesday…wait until Tuesday. I willingly obey.
I’ve realized that it doesn’t matter what I bring, it doesn’t matter if my flights all get delayed or even canceled, and it even doesn’t matter if the plane crashes. God already has a handle on it. Worrying about the future is but a mere waste of time. Just as the bark on a tree provides strength, stability, and protection so too do I have God as my guardian.
“The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.” (Psalm 28:7)
By not worrying about things that I can’t control I have the energy I need for the things that matter, like spending time with God and focusing on my studies. Who cares if I show up in Arizona with nothing but the clothes on my back, heck, who cares if I show up with no clothes on my back! Sure, I probably won’t get past customs and will most definitely endure some horrified looks from traveling bystanders, but God will be laughing right along with me because in the scope of things it really just doesn’t matter.
So that was a little drastic. Which isn’t to say that it couldn’t happen, it could, but letting go of the what-ifs is what makes the journey through life so exhilarating. I pray that I will continue to surrender my worrisome thoughts to God and that he will continue to bless me with peace and contentment. Oh, and I also pray that I don’t show up in Arizona butt naked.